Was talking it over with some of my pastors from church, it looks like I have a fear of rejection. I’m researching what I can do to fight my fear so that I won’t have to be fired tomorrow. This is really stressing me out.

Another option I have is to apply to another store and resign before I can be fired, which is a very short ways away. It looks like I’ll have to face the fear anyway, even for a short time, to be on better terms with the managers while I bide time to find a new job.

In the long run, finding out the root of my failures was an eye-opener and something, if I can face it, that will benefit me in all areas of social and business life.

Was watching Jan’s new video and this really makes sense to me. I’ve been dwelling on the commissions for so long I feel required to get those out of the way, so I’ve hired an extra hand to help out with getting them started/finished (Alamarus/Tinkerbox). I trust his efforts and I’ll be able to put the final touches on to make it exactly how I like, which shouldn’t be too hard since I’ve taught him most of what he knows (being my student and all), so we’ll see how this collaboration goes and maybe he’ll be on board for more projects that I want to rip my hair out from!

The day people who haven’t spoken to me in months show me they still care~